We talked about experiencing the "death of a dream" in my discipleship group last week. One gal related it to taking her house off the market after anticipating its sale and a move to a new home. Another talked about her husband having ministry opportunities that almost-but-not-quite panned out. I nodded and sympathized with them, not dreaming that I would experience it myself this week.
I have been going full-force with this worship CD project since mid-summer. Everything seemed to be lining up to have it ready for duplication in November...until yesterday, when I listened to what we recorded last week. I'm pleased with my playing and with my music selection, but the piano quality is just not up to par. Even with the warmth of the incredible microphones we borrowed, the sound is tinny and harsh; not what I'm going for.
So, back to the drawing board. I am disappointed that it won't be ready for Christmas, but I really want to turn out a quality product. Right now it looks like I will table the project until January, when the busyness of the holidays is over and I have more time to seek out a good recording studio and quality instrument.
It was suggested last week that God allows us to experience the "death of a dream" on purpose. That He gets us to the place where we are completely reliant on Him, ready to act in His perfect timing. It's like He's saying, "Hurry up and wait!" He gives us the vision, and then after we've planned, worked, and gotten everything together, He tells us to STOP. Wait. Instead of going forward in our own strength, wait. Wait until the timing is right and we are fully dependent on the Lord.
Disappointing? Yes. Hard? Yes. But He is more interested in building our character than in completing our projects! And isn't that worth more than gold?
I have been going full-force with this worship CD project since mid-summer. Everything seemed to be lining up to have it ready for duplication in November...until yesterday, when I listened to what we recorded last week. I'm pleased with my playing and with my music selection, but the piano quality is just not up to par. Even with the warmth of the incredible microphones we borrowed, the sound is tinny and harsh; not what I'm going for.
So, back to the drawing board. I am disappointed that it won't be ready for Christmas, but I really want to turn out a quality product. Right now it looks like I will table the project until January, when the busyness of the holidays is over and I have more time to seek out a good recording studio and quality instrument.
It was suggested last week that God allows us to experience the "death of a dream" on purpose. That He gets us to the place where we are completely reliant on Him, ready to act in His perfect timing. It's like He's saying, "Hurry up and wait!" He gives us the vision, and then after we've planned, worked, and gotten everything together, He tells us to STOP. Wait. Instead of going forward in our own strength, wait. Wait until the timing is right and we are fully dependent on the Lord.
Disappointing? Yes. Hard? Yes. But He is more interested in building our character than in completing our projects! And isn't that worth more than gold?